What to do about that
"thing"
Okay, so you've been becoming more aware. You are attempting
to remember to practice present moment awareness. Yet you still
have this blip in your consciousness. A repetitive idea or
image of something you must do or correct or stop avoiding.
This "thing" passes but continues to return intermittently
throughout your day and often makes a veiled appearance in your
dreams. What is this "thing"? Have you avoided investigating
it? Is it some unfinished business? A resentment? A strong
desire that you are suppressing? Something you need to make
amends for? Someone you need to forgive? Is it a vague feeling,
or do you know exactly what it is? Do you realize this "thing"
is probably keeping you from moving forward?
Try using this technique to isolate and examine exactly what
you are dealing with here. Sit quietly on a straight back
chair, arms by your side or folded comfortably in your lap.
Close your eyes and become aware of either hand, preferably
your dominant one. Simply become aware of it. Feel your hand
getting warmer and tingling as you place your attention on
it.
Extend this keen awareness to each individual finger as you
cycle from forefinger, middle and so on. Feel the blood flow
within each individual finger. Each time a random thought
enters your mind, become aware that it is happening and gently
bring your awareness back to your hand. Our intent here is to
absolutely ground ourselves in the present moment.
Now while still being aware of your hand, see if you can
visualize this particular "thing" in your mind's eye. Watch it
play itself out as if you are watching images on a movie
screen. Use the awareness of the hand to stay in the present
moment so that you do not get caught up with what is appearing
on the screen in your mind.
Remain detached from what you may observe regardless of how
unpleasant it may be. That attachment empowers this "thing" and
keeps it alive. This is similar to the experience of being
completely absorbed by an especially frightening or suspenseful
film, only to detach and become aware that you are actually
sitting in a movie theater watching rays of light projected
through film onto a blank screen. Seeing the images on the
screen for what they are, removes one from your emotional
involvement.
In the same way, you are attempting to quietly observe this
"thing" appearing on the screen in your mind, all the while
remaining detached. Now we will be able to clearly determine:
a) What exactly is this "thing"? b) Can any actions be taken to
resolve it? c) If so, why/what are we avoiding? and d) If there
can be no resolution, then why are we not letting go? Using the
technique in order to isolate this "thing" in a quiet
environment, we can now begin an objective examination and
clarify our intent in the matter.
Be particularly aware of the emotion(s) that may accompany
this visualization. Again remember to be aware that if you find
yourself carried away by this/these emotion(s), gently draw
your attention back to your hand which allows you to see the
emotion inducing image for what it is; like that image on the
movie theater screen. Avoidance has allowed it to resurface
time and time again during both your waking and dreaming hours.
This technique will afford you the opportunity for a swift
resolution.
As your body uses physical pain to force you to attend to a
particular need, so does your inner self cause your awareness
to be interrupted by this psychic discomfort which also
requires your attention. Continued avoidance only causes it to
communicate louder.
Start paying attention and a positive by-product of this
technique will be an increased awareness which will assist you
in keeping new "things" from developing and becoming habitual
blocks. The resulting clarity will amaze you.
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